Do I have social anxiety or are parties just esteem traps. House parties are the deadliest because the party happens in different rooms. You have to make several entrances. Everyone looks at you as you enter or worse they don't stop talking. I feel i should not just stand there while they talk - they can see me - it is expected that the stranger say a few words. Maybe too many words because - one by one guests leave for another room. Now it's just me and two remaining people edging to the hallway not, contributing much to the party talk, forcing me to call upon my monologist skill to keep things peppy. Then I am alone in the room looking through a large coffee table book about New Kids On The Block. Not sure how many house parties I have left in me.
But invite me anyway.